It may come off as bit self serving but I’ve been somewhat avoiding my own blog lately. Why? Because honestly I’m trying not to think too much about how close I am getting to the end of my early retirement goal.
You see my current tactic is to keep busy so that the time flies by and before I realize it another month has past and I’m even closer to the end. Oddly, this tactic seems to be working for me. I’m keeping myself occupied at work, my chores list at home is longer than I would like and don’t even get me started on how long my Netflix queue is right now.
The other reason I’m being cautious here is frankly I can be a wee bit obsessive about early retirement (as if you can’t tell by over 10 years of blog posts). So when I do start thinking about early retirement in depth I can can so consumed that I almost cease to think about much of anything else for hours. This of course then get me dreaming of my post work life and then I get a surge of disgust of having to go back to work then next day which then leads me to being distracted at work. After all, it is hard to do good work when your motivation died and is buried out back.
On the pure math target I’m about 99% of the way there so it really isn’t particularly healthy to start counting down by 0.1% segments. I suppose I could but it seem sort of silly. Also I’ve also figured out that I’m not that good at countdowns. I actually find them more demotivating than motivating for myself.
What I am working on is trying to guess on some of the emotional impacts I may feel going through this process of leaving work later this year and prepare for them. Yet with that I’ve come to the conclusion isn’t that useful since I don’t know what I don’t know. I think that this level of change is really beyond the average person’s ability to predict your reaction to, so the only way to really know how it feels like to early retire is to in fact do it. Hence I’ve been spinning my wheels on some draft posts.
So that is lead me overall to avoiding this blog and of course that means less posts recently. Yes, it does suck for you dear reader, but on the upside I am building up a nice list of items to talk about in future posts. You you have a bit of drought now but you likely will have a bit of a flood later on this year.
So how do you deal with being close to the end of a big goal? Any other tactics that work for you?