Ugh, what a week….so far. While there isn’t any single cause for this in the last week I feel like my head wants to blow up. I’ve got a thousand thoughts pushing through my brain as I try to remember to keep up on everything that I’m supposed to be doing. Then when I do have five minutes to sit down I start to recall everything that I haven’t even started yet. In summary: I’m overwhelmed this week.
Yet despite all of this I do take comfort in a single thought: my life won’t always be this way. Unlike a lot of people with vague goals of I’ll retire someday, I know my periods of being overwhelmed won’t last since I can actually see the light at the end of my tunnel. These perfect storms of things to do which pile high on my desks will pass, as I will in the next decade leave one of my desks behind.
I sometimes enjoy a brief fantasy in my mind of never having to book a meeting with four different managers and 10 other staff again (since you never find a time for everyone). Of never opening my inbox after vacation and spend an hour reading emails only to realize that majority of them were pointless in the first place. Of never being forced to sit at my desk at the end of the day for another 15 minutes even if my work is done because somebody with a higher position that me thought this is somehow productive when in fact I can’t finish any of my next tasks in that time frame. Of keeping my mouth shut about something for office political reasons when it goes against my nature to shut up.
This isn’t to say that I don’t like work, but rather I could live without some aspects of my day job very easily. I do enjoy working on challenging problems or finding new solutions or processes which are more effective and efficient. I do enjoy helping people though the tangled mess of regulations to realize their problems isn’t a bad as it initially seems.
So this morning I site here with my coffee and I smile: I have a plan on getting out. So what do you look forward to leaving behind when you retire?